KD’s Journey, Part 2

(This is the most recent update from KD, sent about 10 hours ago. To read the first part of her story, Click HERE)

i want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart who left comments,they made me feel comforted.im getting ready to board my flight to seattle because they dont do the procedure here where i live,but thankfully the procedure,travel,hotel and food are paid for by my insurance under circumstances like mine.this isnt the way i wanted to spend mothers day weekend but im reminding myself that my situation will help other mothers with thier cure someday,the scientists who im allowing to test the fetus said that they think they may have (possibly) found a way to correct if it found early enough.im not sure what they are talking about because last i checked there were 43 things this causes and a few were childhood cancers.this is the worst thing that has ever happend to me and i still cant beleive it,you never think these things will happen to you i guess,ive stepped out of the denial and now im just hoping something good will come out of this some day for somebody.its kind of amazing how much my baby could do for the world before she was even born,who knows maybe things do happen for a reason,maybe she was meant to help the scientists learn more,or maybe im still lying to myself to make myself feel better.im terrified of the actual procedure but the thing that scares me the most is coming home (empty).i dont know how people heal on from these things but i do know that all you beautiful and encouraging people have kept me strong and reminded me that there is still beauty in the world,the world may be cruel but its the beautiful and caring people like you that make it a better place-thank you ~KD

lunaissupernova:

Since i’ve become pregnant i’ve been asked a lot about my views on abortion.
In the first place it’s something I don’t like to talk about. So i’m going to answer your question now in a post.

I’d be lying if I said my views on abortion haven’t changed. I’ve always believed however that it is…

Uhm… How the fuck did you go through life without the understanding that fetuses move? 

Also, it didn’t “Wave” at you. All fetal movement is purely reflexive, not the result of neurological processes directing movement i.e. intentional movement in the form of a wave. 

Seriously wondering how you escaped school without a basic understanding of human development. 

KD’s Journey

(The main purpose of both this tumblr and the facebook page that inspired it, is to provide an anonymous platform for women to share about their abortion, as it happens. Our goal is to demystify the abortion experience for all women. The following is the beginning of “KD’s” story. All of her submissions will be tagged #KDAbortion. I do not edit these submissions in any way.)

My abortion appt is on Friday and my baby’s condition is rare,there’s only about 20 cases of it,so I’ve decided not to bring it in the world to suffer and to donate her body for science so the next women will have more information then I did.i wish I had a crystal ball that could explain all these whys.the worst part is feeling her move.i love her and I wanted her but I don
't want her to live a painful life,the last baby with this genetic problem suffered for 14 months before it passed,and I don't think I'm strong enough to wait around to bury my child,so even though abortion may be “murder” in my case I find it the more humane route for my loved and wanted child.this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do and I'm doing it alone,(restraining order on crazy ex) I do believe I will be forgiven,I wish this wasn't my life,why me?i used to be against abortion, but now I'm against letting my child live a life of pain,even though it may be a short life,it's still a painful one,I've never appreciated having the choice until I had to make that choice,hopefully my experience will help the scientists find out more about duplication of chromosome 7. I fell in love with her when she was forming in my womb,but now I have to carry her in my heart instead of my arms. ~heaven may hold you before we do,and keep you safe until we come home to you.

The hardest part has been waiting for more tests hoping for more answers only to get bad news,and now I can feel her move,it would’ve been soo much easier if I didn’t torture myself to find out every thing I could on something so rare that they know nothing about,and I’m still torturing myself with the decision I keep talking myself out of it then remembering my reasons for it.lifes not fair that’s for sure ,and this world is a cruel place.i just don’t want to regret this decision after its too late. - KD

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underthesun-and-moon:

the-robot-condese:

tiny-little-nebula:

taloa-nashoba:

thatthirstyniggafromclass:

misconceptions about strippers. 

pussy preach more sense than the fuckin government.

I want to break necks when people shade strippers. Let’s see your janky ass get out there and look that cute in 6 inch heels for 8 hours, smiling the entire time, stroking egos, pretending a dude’s breath doesn’t smell like a rotten animal.

Truth.

My sister has a Masters in Education. She got a job at one of the poorest schools in the city, but didn’t make enough money to pay to keep her tiny house heated through the Oregon winter or buy enough food or take her dog to the vet (first person who drops the word rehome gets a kick in the face.) so she quit and the only job she could get because she’s “overqualified” to work at Fred Meyers was at a strip club because she minored in ballet. I think people forget that stripping is like any other job: you have to have some experience.

And all those crumpled one dollar bills? 20% of that goes back into the club because strippers are renting the stages they dance on. Sometimes it’s more.

Despite all of that, my sister makes more money than she ever did because she works 80 hour weeks and literally never takes a day off. She teaches classes to drunk white girls, she does private parties, she does entertainment for conferences and shows. 

When I had to go to the ER last February and got a bill for $800 that I couldn’t pay, my sister sent me money so I wouldn’t be sent to collections. 

My sister is the classiest motherfucker in a pair of six inch heels. Anyone who calls her a dumb slut or a hoe gets their shit wrecked.

that’s the best thing i ever just heard get said

Opens up my eyes

(Source: pink-vulva, via akelanorine)

My Own Abortion Story Part 6 (12/19/12 - 12/27/12)
(Note - This is a continuation of my story originally shared on facebook. Click for Part I Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 )
12/19/12
I must say, I have been sleeping incredibly well since my appointment. So much for all those warnings of sleepless nights, tossing and turning, and nightmares.
First day spotting. This was actually less bleeding, after the fact, than my normal period. Not to shabby! 
Feeling great, by the way. No overwhelming grief or guilt. No unexplained bouts of crying. I’m sleeping well, appetite is back. 
:)
Today I sat back and thought about what sort of situation I would be in if abortion were illegal and I had not been able to access my choice. 
I honestly do not know what I would do. The concept is so abstract and so far outside my realm of reality I can’t even begin to really consider what I would have done. 
I know 100% had abortion been illegal, I STILL would have had an abortion. The thought of being in such a situation is TERRIFYING. Who knows what sorts of dangerous risks I would have taken to end the pregnancy? 
I wish I could keep an extra abortion pill in my medicine cabinet just in case abortion does ever face some serious challenges in our country. The idea of taking the pill without an ultrasound and doctors presence is terrifying, but at least I would know that I was illegally terminating a pregnancy in the safest way possible.
 
 
12/20/12
Woke up with another bout of pretty strong cramps last night and passed a medium sized clot. Since my bleeding has pretty much stopped. I have officially switched to panty liners. I did call the clinic to see if this was normal and it was explained to me that it most likely is normal. They encouraged me to keep my follow-up and call if I continue to pass clots. 
In other news - Think I am going to bake a cake and bring it in on my follow - up day. Im hoping the fact that I am not some random off the street will mean they trust my delicious cake and enjoy it.

12/27/12

Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday break! Mine was fantastic. Pregnancy symptoms were completely gone. It felt lovely to enjoy the day with my family without the unplanned pregnancy hanging over my head. 
Here’s to a happy and healthy new year for everyone!
Anonymous:
Hi! I'm not having an abortion and have never had one, but I just wanted to say that in spite of that, I love what you're doing so much (I found your Facebook page through Bedsider, and that led me here). It's so brave of you to share your story, and so wonderful of you to provide a safe place for other women to share theirs.

Thank you for the kind words! :)

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anneonimock1:

did-you-kno:

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Baby… :’) that would be perfect.

THE ELLEN / PORTIA BABY IS POSSIBLE? (see earlier post :P)

anneonimock1:

did-you-kno:

Source

Baby… :’) that would be perfect.

THE ELLEN / PORTIA BABY IS POSSIBLE? (see earlier post :P)

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damnsoprochoice:

proudgayconservative:

Cherlie Lafleur, 19, was arrested after a custodian at McCaskey East High School in Lancaster, Pennsylvania, discovered the body of a young baby in a trash can in the ladies restroom at the school on Tuesday.

McCaskey East high school

The teen reportedly first attempted to flush the child down the toilet. But when that didn’t work, she deposited the body in the trash can. 

An autopsy has found that the baby was about 28 weeks gestation, well past the point of viability. Police have not yet determined whether the child was stillborn or alive at birth.

“We can not always determine if there was a heartbeat at the time,” said the coroner. 

Cherlie Lafleur

Surveillance footage at the school allowed police to track down Lafleur as the suspect.

The teen has been charged with concealing the death of a child. 

This is what happens when there is poor access to abortion.  Poor access to information might also be the case. i think it’s horrible that lifesitenews is trying to push this as a topic, without even having ANY evidence of this being an attempted abortion, or the background information at all.

I mean, what the hell is this supposed to prove? And what’s with the Gosnell tag? Stop trying to exploit that topic for things that have nothing to do with him. This is sick.

Meanwhile, the person who originally posted this doesn’t understand that when you make abortion illegal, shit like this will be RAMPANT. 

Meanwhile, the person who originally tagged this with the Gosnell tag, has not disclosed that Gosnell was running an illegal operation that was finally shut down when the state got off it’s ass and investigated. This same person is FURTHER ignoring the reality of their advocacy. 

Meanwhile, yet another anti-choicer has proven how out of touch with reality they REALLY are. 

Not yet, but I will as soon as I get a chance ;) is it also called "havinganabortion" ?
Anonymous:
It's good to know there are people that are okay with murdering a child.

A) I know you were using hyperbole to demonize abortion so I won’t even go into the fact that no where on this blog has anyone discussed murdering children.
B) I call bullshit on my blog being your first exposure to pro-choice activism
C) Glad I could help ya out :)